Spring cleaning... Moving... One extreme to Another

Spring cleaning


My closet threw up
Spilling out all sorts of hidden stuff
Packed inside - underneath all sorts of complex simplicity
at first thought wanted to escape it
At least shake it
Remake it
Take it reshape it
But then
Came idea to embrace it
Take responsibility, claim it
Use what I had and make it
Greater still


Moving

Today is the day before the day I'm officially to move out my apartment, I'm really sad but happy at the same time.  I had been looking forward to staying here until August, but while I was making that plan life had something else in store for me. A few weeks ago I got the news- long story short, I have to move.  I guess the thing that I had been focused on for over a year had finally come to pass.  A little less than a month ago I was comfortable, content, felt at home - on the other hand for days, weeks and years prior I had been thinking about, dreaming about, writing about, and talking about moving.  The picture doesn't look the way I imagined it - so, what happened?  I wasn't prepared for the unexpected, but how do I plan for what I don't expect? Maybe by taking the lessons from my past experiences, the wisdom of others, and tons more ways I'm sure... So, now what?  I guess I move on.


One extreme to Another

Was on top of my game, world, feeling my spirit, going with the flow next minute
I'm on stumble and then
it all crumbles
counting my crumbles
I don't to mean to mumble about nothings...
it was a day not long far away
I came in to my Queendom all smiles loving the sights, and non-sounds, the breeze in the air the sweet smell all around there
less than a day later got so many questions I'm asking the elders and my peers
next I'm meditating, reaching out to the ancestors- I'm all eyes and ears
listening to understand and be clear

Since Queens can go
any
direction
I just wanna know
which way to go

I couldn't see the road until I road on a memory
that sorta reminded me
of this moment
then I'm like,  "yea self don't it?"
Iv'e been here before
different place - persons
but overall situation the same
recalling how I opened and closed that door
and the road became clear
ah here,
here. we. are.
now I'm seeing several roads...